Alive

I am still here and kicking. I think I am going to journal mondays. I intend to write more for my own mental health. I feel like there is more fraying then before. I work full time and go to school now. There are a lot of stresses at the job and an expectation to do well. I need to maintain order as well as provide service. I need to make sure that customer needs are met as well as my people have the tools to do it. Being understaffed this is not an easy task to accomplish. I feel like I'm also fighting my own head sometimes. Its like I can only sit and reflect on all I do thats wrong. It all seems so pointless in the end. The anxiety is something that makes me feel like nothing can help. I wish I could see a point to all of this but I guess I just have to move on and keep going.